Archive | July 2014

Pierce Me

Even the smallest light pierces the darkest darkness
-Nicholas Booth (my brother, a very smart guy)

Hopelessness, there is nothing worse.

When we were young, my parents divorced and in that, I lost my brother. He was only nine years old at the time and I was about 14 if my memory serves me correctly. My mother decided he should go with our dad and I would stay with her.

The darkness I felt when I would think of him was unshakable at times, like I knew he was in a deep sadness and I couldn’t find him to save him. I couldn’t reach him. I was his big sister and I was powerless.

I didn’t see him again until he was 18 and it was only for a few weeks. There were lies and secrets involving his return, and when he was suddenly gone again, my hope of reconnecting went with him.

I loved my brother and I knew that something wasn’t right. I prayed that someday the truth would come to the light.

Another 22 years would pass, and every June I would remember him on his birthday and send him a prayer wherever he was. I knew that when the time was right he would be back.

That darkness was finally pierced this April when he found me. We have talked about a lot of things, and many lies have been cleared up and healing has begun. Sometimes finding out the light of the truth has made me cry but it has also made me smile because now I can get to know the little boy who is now a man and has endured more than I can imagine.

I am so proud of him for the strong person that he is and has become. Despite every stumbling block thrown at him, he has been married to the same woman for twenty years, and has three children. He’s built their home with his own hands and has made something of himself, not with material wealth but with a light that shines from within him and I love him so much.

This entry was posted on July 29, 2014. 1 Comment

Break The Chains

The memories you have are just recordings of things past, not chains to bind you- Mike Dolan

The past does not have to cripple us. Sometimes we carry around emotional crutches. They are not solid to the touch, but they are thoughts in our minds that bind us and keep us from success and progress.

They keep us limping along in life instead of sprinting to the finish line with joy and exhilaration. We hobble along with our hearts grasped tightly to the crutches because they are our excuses for not being happy.

We mistakenly believe the lies people have told us about ourselves and our lack of worth.

When will we realize that we hold the golden key that can release us from the grip of our prison? When will we turn the key and break ourselves free from the chains? The key is truth, the truth of what and who Christ says we are in scripture.

Break the chains of “nobody wants me” by believing the truth of :

I will be a Father to you and you will by my sons and daughters says the Lord Almighty -2 Corinthians 6:18 (NIV)

I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you – John 14:18 (NIV)

Break the chains of “ I was a mistake” by believing the truth of :

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. – Psalm 139: 13-16 (NIV)

Break the chains of “I’ve made too many mistakes and I’m a failure” by believing the truth of:

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come, the old has gone, the new is here -2 Corinthians 5:17 (NIV)

I have spent too many years being concerned about what other people thought about me and over time, I have come to realize that at the end of the day there is only One Person that I need to answer to and as long as I know He is pleased with my ways, then that is all that matters to me.

Most of the lies have been washed away and the chains replaced by a peace that is almost unexplainable to most. The beauty in this, is the knowledge that we all have access to the same peace. We must replace the recordings with truth, because after all, it is the truth that sets us free.

This entry was posted on July 24, 2014. 1 Comment

The World Is Our Canvas

Shouldn’t our lives be a work of art?  What are we painting with our thoughts and our actions? Are we applying broad strokes of worry and fear, or of faith and hope?

Are we painting with dabs of hate and jealousy, or with joy and contentment?

Will we leave behind a canvas of failure or a masterpiece of love?

It’s never too late to pick up a new brush and  wipe the canvas clean! Clean with forgiveness, vibrant with joy and glowing with peace.

It all starts with the power of our mind. Our thoughts determine every action we take. Our beliefs become a reality.

Our faith in the possible all lies within us, with a never ending supply of color and beauty.

When we care about others by comforting them and acknowledging  their uniqueness, they reflect back to us their own painting.

So seize the day and paint your masterpiece! It’s a live canvas that we leave behind to those we love, and well… if that’s all we accomplish,  then we have done our part.