Archive | July 2013


Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man’s life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions.” Luke 12:15 (NIV)

Have you ever seen the bumper sticker that says: The One With The Most Toys Wins!

Why is it we spend so much time collecting stuff and acquiring more things as we go along in life? Do those “things” really make us happy? Perhaps they do momentarily, until we find the next best thing to strive for. But then sometimes we have to work hard to pay for them and we become a slave to our debt. We may perhaps wonder then, if it was really worth it.

I’ve never really been a “things” girl, but as I have gotten older I find myself giving away more and more. I work hard to pay my bills and I live a very simple life, yet something always seems to happen and I can never catch up. For a rule-follower, that is hard for me to accept.

There are some hard choices I must make in the very near future. It is overwhelming to not have someone to guide me. I may not be able to keep my house that I worked so hard for. The house that I vowed to my children would be our home. I’ve spent countless hours painting, gardening, sewing window treatments to make it cozy. I’ve spent many fall evenings on my patio, with good friends who have become so close to me.

My pride is holding on tight, but my heart is telling me that in order to have less stress I might have to sell it and find something smaller. My heart is telling me that maybe God wants something MORE for me but if my hands are gripping so tight to this, they will not be open for what He may have in store for me.

God reminded me the other night that everything I have really is a gift from Him anyway. So, I have started letting go of my grip little by little. I have cleaned out my closets and given lots away to Salvation Army. I’ve thrown away so many things I know I will never use again, and in the process I have begun to open to the idea that He has never left me before and that He will watch over me and guide my steps when I feel confused.

The more I give away, the more I realize that I really do not need those things to fill up my life. What I really need more of, is HIM!

This entry was posted on July 29, 2013. 2 Comments

The Empty Nest

My threeTrain a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it. Proverbs 22:6

It seems like just yesterday when my children were small. It seems like just yesterday that I felt like I did not have a moment to myself to even finish a whole thought in my head before someone was calling out my name. Mom!

I remember the sleepless nights and the thousands of diapers I must have changed, the temper tantrums and having to take a baby in the bathroom in her bouncy chair just so I could take a shower without hearing them scream for me. A trip to the grocery store ALONE was like a vacation!

I remember people telling me to embrace those days because they would be gone before I knew it. Here I am, 20 years later. Despite all of those times when I felt overwhelmed or under- qualified to be a mother, I feel so blessed that I was able to spend all those years at home, raising them because I would not have wanted anyone else on this earth to do it for me.

The funny thing is, when I look back over those years, it really isn’t the negative things that I think about. I think about the sound of their laughter and how they would find delight in the littlest of things. I think about the times when I would rock them to sleep in my blue rocker in a moonlit room, and the smell of their fresh bathed skin. They would fall asleep, but instead of putting them in the crib I would hold on to them just a little bit longer as they dreamed.

I think about how I would press my lips to their temple to see if they had a fever. I still do that today, but they don’t like it. Teenagers are like that I guess. Now we aren’t allowed to touch them at all!

I think about how I would know how one of them was feeling without a word even being spoken. I guess parents just have intuition about some things.

I remember the countless nights I laid down with them at bed time and read the same book over and over again, thinking to myself that we might have to “lose” this book tomorrow night.

My friends were right, time did go by fast. Mistakes were made I’m sure, but I stilled loved them. I know it is our job to raise our children in order to give them wings, so that when it is time to leave our nest, they will be able to soar.

I want my children to have a good life, and not to feel guilty for leaving me, but to know that they I will always love them and will always be here for them.

They are not gone yet, but I can feel it coming and my heart aches for that loss of what I have known for the last twenty years, but with that I pray that I have equipped them with what is most important: to live good lives of integrity, honor, and faith.

The world puts so much emphasis on material wealth and pleasure. There is nothing wrong with either one, but all things must be balanced and I hope that when they do leave this nest, that they will carry me with them in their hearts and remember the things that I have told them for they are truly the loves of my life.

I wouldn’t trade a single moment!

This entry was posted on July 11, 2013. 5 Comments